I had not originally planned on going to playgroup today. Maybe my timeline had already been determined, and by changing my mind, I created an anomaly. This anomaly resulted in an accident. The accident coincided with a similar accident, involving the same people, last year. Of course, the power of suggestion is a strange thing as well.
What is she talking about? Well, last year, I decided to volunteer to help walk with my daughter's class to Dairy Queen, a few minutes from her school. I also had my two year old son with me. At some point, I ended up carrying my son, and holding my daughter's hand. I am not sure if she stepped on my shoe, but somehow I ended up tripping, with my son in my arms.
I managed to turn him away from the fall, however, his head still hit a tiny rock. There was a lot of blood from this little cut, but we managed to clean it up, and he was fine within two minutes. I, on the other hand, was still shaken up. The adrenaline rush left me with a racing heart, vibrating hands, and I was embarrassed by the fall. I did not bring my son along on any other field trips after that.
So, today, I was supposed to spend the morning in town, waiting for my van to get a quick service. I ended up changing it to a longer service appointment, so I decided to have them shuttle us home instead of waiting. We made it home in time to go to a playgroup we had missed the past few weeks. Getting there was not an issue, even though I was rushing to arrive at the school.
On the way home, I saw the current JK class lining up to leave the school. I should not have asked where they were going. As soon as I heard the words Dairy Queen, my thoughts went straight to the fall. It was all I was thinking about. I did not even follow the group of students. I have no connection to anyone in that grade. I was taking my time. I was careful as I was pushing the stroller home. Then, I arrived at a steep area between two parking lots.
I have taken the stroller down this area many times over the years, and never had an issue. Normally, I lift the front wheels of the stroller and let it roll down on the back wheels, keeping my child level, and safe. The front wheels must have caught, and I slipped, falling on my knees. The stroller flipped over, and my son ended up with a mouth full of sand. When I brought him home to clean him up, I noticed his cheek was super red, and his nose was scratched up. No blood this time, though. No one seemed to notice my fall, or they conveniently ignored the clumsy mother who seemed to be dealing with the incident.
I am beginning to think it might not be a good idea to volunteer to walk with my son's class next year when it is his turn to walk to Dairy Queen. The accident most likely occurred because I was distracted by the students coming from around the store. I was constantly thinking of the original fall, and how embarrassed and guilty I felt. Then, it happened again.
Like I said, suggestion is a powerful thing. I essentially willed this accident into being. It does not help that I am a clumsy person by nature, but if I had not seen the JK class, and known they were going to DQ, I probably would not have fallen. Then again, maybe it was what was predetermined to happen today. I fall and walk into things more often than regular people.
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